While pondering my memories, I started having flashbacks of when my friends from school would sleep over. I remember most of the time, my dad would keep clear of them completely. He wouldn’t speak to them or me while they were around and appeared to avoid them at all costs. I think it’s because he molested at least one of them. I have a few memories of one of my friends looking very uncomfortable around my dad whenever she saw him. I think I may have actually saw something once, but my memory is especially foggy there, so I won’t say what. It could just as easily be nothing at all. But what I do remember is one of my friends always looking scared around my dad.

Maybe my dad did molest her one night, either in her sleep and she caught him or he came onto her and she rejected his advances hard. Like me, she didn’t have it in her to tell anyone, but from then on, my dad knew to stay away from her to cover himself. Maybe the rest of my friends too so he wouldn’t be tempted to molest them as well? Assuming he did only molest one. That’s my theory, anyway. But I’m feeling that my dad probably molested at least one of my friends. The behavior from both of them is just too telling. Too familiar.

It’s a shame I ended up growing apart from this friend or else I would have asked her. I really hope I’m wrong about this. If not, I can only hope that she’s okay and if the trauma has come back to haunt her, that she’s found a way to overcome it. As for my dad, I can’t say I’m surprised that he would do something like this. Make it so I wasn’t his only victim. I wrote about how brazen he would get with molesting me in my previous entry, so I know he wasn’t above taking his chances with other girls. But again, I can only hope I’m wrong. But I don’t think I am.