Now that I'm back on my own in therapy and with my mother hopefully going to be doing her own therapy sessions, I went and addressed something I've been meaning to for a while: piecing together fragmented memories. Unfortunately, my therapist said fragmented memory recovery isn't quite how therapy works and any methods practiced have been discredited by science. You learn something new every day.

She said the said speaking from her experiences being molested with vague or fragmented, she's tried revisiting places where it happened or focusing on things that might remind her of certain occasions. She warned me that it may be triggering, but it may come back to me. I'm not too concerned about getting triggered since I'm able to handle myself well enough for the most part. I guess I'll have to figure that out on my own.

I also told her about the bits and pieces I can remember from my fragmented memories. Including one in particular when I must've been 8 and my stopped in the middle of molesting me and said something, looking a little upset. I wasn't able to remember much of anything else, but my sister did provide something that might explain it: my dad having moments of guilt and regret. That the same thing would happen with her molester and how they'd randomly be apologetic and guilt-ridden while or after molesting her.

That could very well explain some other things I can remember about my dad's behavior from the earliest times he would molest me. I might make a post about it soon. Overall, I'm glad to be doing therapy on my own again. I'm glad to have given it a try with my mom, but us taking therapy separately is probably the best way to go about it now. I may ask her she feels her own therapy sessions are helping if she gets around to them.