Ever since I told her dad molested me, the way she interacts with me has completely changed. It’s like she feels she has to walk on eggshells with me now or something. I can understand it to a point, but she seems to have forgotten how I’ve gone on for years with relative normalcy, even while the molestation was happening without her knowing. Maybe it’s unreasonable, but I can’t help but feel just a little insulted. She’s complimented me for how strong-willed I always am but it’s like I suddenly appear weak and in frequent need of being checked up on. It’s getting on my nerves.

What’s bothering me most though is her being set on how the last couple of times happened was when I was 18 and 20. I shared with some details about that without getting graphic, but I don’t like how she was questioning me. It was like she’s trying to see if it was consensual because I was an adult by that point, like she doesn’t have much empathy that I might’ve allowed it to happen but that doesn’t mean I wanted it to. She hasn’t come outright said that and I could be completely, but that’s how it’s feeling. I can’t promise I’ll be able to keep my cool if she carries on about it.

This is making thing twice about bringing her along for my therapy sessions. I might just talk it over with her soon and hopefully establish some kind of understanding, if need be. My mom did admit that she’s never had to address this issue firsthand ever in her life, so maybe she needs insight from someone who has. It’s just too bad to has to be from her own daughter molested by the man she married, no less. It’s times like these where I can’t help but lose my cool and ask “Why did this have to happen?”