Looking at my my recent posts, I've been talking a lot about my ex (who's now a close friend) recently and not much about my trauma. I commented on one of my entries saying at least my relationship with him has been a good distraction. But what if this distraction is really just me procrastinating addressing my issues and it comes back to bite me later, In the form of my feelings being bottled up to where I'm feeling overwhelmed again? I've been helping a few fellow survivors on the forums here recently and one of them said I'm an inspiration. I've been praised by those I've helped before, but no one has ever told me that. If I really am, then I feel compelled to keep being such and that would be difficult to live up to if I'm losing myself from letting my issues get to me again. Perhaps I can find a middle ground between posting my slice of life entries and entries about my trauma.

I forgot to mention, now that I'm going to be out of therapy for quite a while, this place will be all I have. I better get to it.

Well, the best thing is to see folks get better and leave the forums, but I'm human and selfish enough to be glad you're here posting to other threads.

Well, thank you. It’s nice being appreciated, even if I don’t come here looking to earn a reputation.

A reputation? For what? We're all sufferers in PF; or pretty nearly so. You're in good company. I do sometimes miss certain ones when they move on- understanding it's good to move on, and sometimes depending on the disorder folks have to leave PF to actually get better, past a certain point. But still, glad you're around.