No doubt it’s a good thing that I’m getting counseling for my trauma and I will eventually tell my family the truth about what my dad was doing to me for 20 years, but I’ve just recently started thinking that I still may never be able to get any closure. What if my dad answering to me, at least, for what he did is the final piece that will bring me the closure I need and I’m never going to get it now because he’s dead? Part of me really would like to have known what he would have had to say. If he really believed all the BS he’d tell me during, if he really did feel any remorse over what he did to me. You can say it shouldn’t matter to me, and it shouldn’t, but it does. Maybe another step in my journey towards overcoming my trauma will be letting go of that aspect.