One thing that has also been keeping me from writing more is that I’ve still been quite distracted from dwelling on my trauma in this positive mental place I’ve been in since the beginning of this past summer. The primary source of this good place, for those who might’ve been following my entries since then might’ve guessed, being with my boyfriendish partner. We’re still spending more time together than I thought we would, but with our relationship, we’re still not romantically (or sexually) involved despite how close we are. I’ll elaborate more on the present state of our relationship in a separate entry, but the main thing I’m getting at now is that it’s been hard to stay focused on addressing my trauma when he’s been such a major source of contentment in my life right now. But I do want to find a middle ground with continuing on my path to recovering from my past and still being happy with where I’m at. I’ll find a way to break this habit of letting myself be distracted.