I was able to get an appointment set up for therapy next Monday. That was quick and easy. It still kinda scares me, but I’m glad I did it. We’ll just see how it goes. I had it in my mind that on Thanksgiving, I was going to tell my mom about my recently deceased dad having molested me for years. Thanksgiving was one of the few instances where I would see my dad after it happened and I just know someone is going to mention how this is our first Thanksgiving after his passing. I thought I could at least tell my mom the truth about him, but when it comes down to it, I’m backing out. I’ll maybe try again around Christmas. Hopefully by then, I’ll have been in counseling a long enough time to where I can feel more confident about telling my family.

I know it will be irritating, to understate it, to hear folks talk about him today, but I don't know today is the day I would tell my mom, either. That might ruin the day for her from here on out so I think that's a good decision. I think I'd do it not on a holiday, to be honest.