Things aren't wonderful, but they have calmed down. I have the Christmas tree up in the office. My co worker had to assist me with it. Today has been very up and down. People seem mean to me; I know that I must look poorly to them. Sick.
I have a phone now and so I use FB a lot. FB is what currently keeps me sane.
Yesterday, I had a bad time. I haven't been able to eat very much as of late, so I have been nearly starving. Two of the three ladies upstairs were nice enough to offer me soups and chicken to eat. I tried eating a broccoli and cheese bowl today and I nearly threw up. I have a gag reflex now.
I'm playing Hindi songs loudly to keep myself occupied.
I put up some other decorations on the office lights=you know the kind that are flourescent and have the blocks that hang down where you can well, hang stuff. They are Christmas balls. They look "okay." I wouldn't say that they are great, but whatever.
I do try hard at work, I do. I tried this morning to look nice, but most folks hated the outfit. And I couldn't find the toothpaste and my teeth were yellow. I was horrified. Someone looked at me in the elevator like was scum of the earth.
So, I am just in a rut right now. I don't know what is going on with certain things and I dont' want to get into it, but I am really scared.
But--for now, I'm calm.