My regimen is two valerian, two lamictal and two melatonin per night. It works to cut SOME anxiety, curbs mood swings and takes care of sleep.

I didn't have coffee today. The sedative effects of the meds and natural supplements is stronger today.

I've been following the Gita with the book now AND the recording. I've gotten to Chapter 6. I have made some new connections. I also have been looking at the 8 fold path.

I have sent out one map, ordered some maps of other states and that's about it.

Condemnation and hatred are hard to battle. In their eyes, I am scum and irredeemable.

But I had a good weekend. Friday we ate out as a family at Cracker Barrel. We spent most of the weekend with our friend Mario and his son Thomas. Saturday, Allen spent most of his time with Mario and Thomas. I went shopping and spent fifty bucks on clothes for myself and Richard. Sunday, actually was spectacular. Richard actually sat through the entire service and people complimented me on my outfit and hair. And Sunday night, I actually had supper with my friends Liz and Gladys. I ran to get a gift for the baby dedication but I was too late.

Richard went bowling with the youth group. Richard might be trying out for an educational program at school, but I don't want to jinx it.

Anyway, these are good things. You have to understand what I call "The Oxford Effect" where my past is before my eyes. I am called liar over and over again. I hear "slut" in my own head. There is a woman in that hometown who was promiscuous 50 years ago. She also has the look like a Roma or gypsy and people also call her a witch. She is called a you know what, even now.

Did you know that the Roma are descended from the Jat tribe of NW India and that originally they were warriors who went nomadic. They NEGOTIATE they don't "cheat." They are diplomatic because they are--nomadic.