Well, I don't know.....I live in the Bible Belt. have the capacity for basic Christianity and I can see when God moves, its just that it feels like God moves really slowly and in the meantime I am in vast amounts of pain that are close to unbearable.

So, fitting Christianity in, which is a value indicator, is difficult because my family of origin is not Christian and we have social justice types of values and believing some parts of the Bible is difficult because some of it sounds so ignorant, like the way they treat women in the Old Testament.

People take my extreme mental illness and think that I don't believe in God or that I am not making progress. They don't get how difficult life is and how difficult it is to control myself and block out their energies and what they say.

I am stuck at the church I am at because it is the only church that my ADHD son can handle and the babysitter goes there. My husband is cheap and he won't get a proper babysitter. I'm stuck. I need more Bible teaching but these COC people just keep having speakers. Their services are awesome but their adult Sunday Schools suck.


I had tried the Gita for a time. Indian psychiatrists say that it is like a form of CBT. I tried that for about four years. It produced greater honesty, greater communication and took away my adulterous side but left some the anomalous behaviors intact.


Well, I don't know.....I live in the Bible Belt.

Now, the Christians say that I need to try Jesus and all of that. I have been baptized six times
BUT if I am to be a Christian, there have to be some "stays" some points where I can keep an even keel.