There is an effect that happens in my family. The four older siblings have escaped it. Most of them have moved and one is still here where I live. The next generation is beautiful, so they don't have to worry about it.

In the genetic grouping, you have, of the older generation, higher average to MENSA and lots of astigmatism. You have high levels of eccentricity; you have agnosticism; you have intellectual arrogance and either the far Left or high levels of liberalism. One sister presides over LGBT marriages and another defends the abolishment of Amendment 26. These are the MENSA sibs, of course. I stick with Native American rights.


The others have escaped slut shaming, persecution and being ostracized by use of their talents, by moving away, or if they are in my state, by hiding away and staying only within the confines of their professional contacts. They hide away at their ranch and don't ever go out.

Professional images of most of my sibs are for the brother, clean shaven or for my sisters lots of dresses and jewelery and good make up--rosacea treatments.

I follow the pattern of my MIL, whose family is almost identical to mine, only Libertarian instead of Democrat. My husband chose a woman who looks just like his mom. In 20 years, I will have short hair, odd mandibles and will be highly eccentric with a short semi stocky body, as I have seen.

My own mother was hated in our town. She was not racist and she was not one who was properly behaved in accordance with southern ways (she was a flirt). She was loud and brash and very very intelligent. She was a journalist who would be like the lady in "Murder She Wrote" and figure out who the evil doer was. She was big for social justice. She was the Missouri version of a "Sooner."

Anyway, at work, I am the Std. who has been "caught." Had the oldest not gotten contacts and a slim figure and ballroomed, she would be here where I am and be miserable. She is slim and eventually became a tax lawyer. She wears the cute little Tilda Swinton pants suits. The next to last went to NO and was lucky enough to eventually find a good, solid man to be with. The one who is here and who WAS tending to gain weight, stayed private and away from folks and was always dealing only with her profession. She has lost weight and looks skeleteny, but people like it now. She wears little dresses and looks nice all of the time.

Even my good looking figure beautiful daughter had some chiding. She couldn't as none of us can when we are young (except sibling number one) stay away from relationships, flirting and etc. All of us are stupid. The middle two were stupid in other states, though so nobody knows what they did.

I am the youngest, the one with the lowest IQ. I am the one who is caught up in a job in a GLASSED IN OFFICE. My deeds are all chronicled in my home town. As you know, I was called "Carrie" as in Sissy Spacek. Here, I've been stupid as well. The person who sucked me into the stupidity, the sister and she destroyed one another, sadly.

I have been in a pentitent condition for about 4 years and I have nipped my own addictions in the bud. My addictions are not like those of the siblings. The siblings have AA and NA to fall back on. I don't know, I guess that I could try Codependents Anonymous.

I have behaved myself and have been striving towards a better way. I listen to my Gita every morning and my Gayatri Mantra.

I clean up okay, but it takes great effort.

If I don't straighten up, I will wind up an intellectual ninny, an eccentric old woman out on the dregs of life, quoting poetry and getting happy over thrift shopping, jumping for joy over a two dollar ironing board and discussing politics and generally being hated by most of the population--if something is not done NOW. I WILL BE my MIL. It's coming...living in a dump and yet boasting that so and so was a Senator........It will happen......My family will be my religion.

I don't have fantastic talents like ballrooming. I don't have a twenty four inch waist like my oldest sister.

I don't have a long distance instruction job.

I dont' have an engineering business where I can do plans at the house.

I am not a quiet preppy doing Real Estate for a University.

What can I do? I am exposed to the population. THEY are not.

We are so much consumed by the idea that others might do better than us,and what that would say about us?
The blamed type of woman,what would you become,what should become.Forever young,forever slim,forever fighting to reach an ideal that we can only dream about.

I like your writing style:).