I've decided that so many people hurt me and so many people hate me (offline) that I am going to go introverted and hard ass to protect myself.
I don't have a choice. I really don't.
I'm not sure what i will do for office parties, but I know that it is time to withdraw.
I can get out the tuna cans and chicken cans and eat out of that and stay to myself with fruit and cookies and all that and eat at my desk. I don't have to go upstairs.
I can utlize FB and other ways of keeping in touch that will assist in the need for social contact. I have ICarus PRoject and I have here that I can go to and make friends on here
I have friends in my personal life as well and my family--in laws, ex in laws, in law brothers and sisters, family of origin and my own nuclear family. I will no longer rely on folks at work except for maybe like 4 people I can trust.
From now on I will be as cold as ice and no longer speak except politely. There is no reason to.
I will also hunt for another job.