I have super--severe premenstrual dysmorphic disorder which aggrevates my personality disorder and I am a high functioning borderline. It has taken me two to three years to understand the PMDD.


I've heard that omega 3 helps, like what is found in tuna. I know--I know--what about mercury? Well, there are supplements. I know that for me, extra vitamins like vitamins c and d help. Melatonin for sleep. Cammemile tea. A personal space. Excersise.

These helps but I have to CLOCK it all. I use a calender and my journal to clock it. I actually clock when I go to which church, and if my body is in bad shape and I am deeply depressed, I don't go to church.

Example: September

8/31-September 6th: Luteal dump two ====depression, irritability and paranoid psychosis (harmless to others)

8-11th: period: big, filled with water, tired, gastro-intestinal problems, headache, paranoia and ego fragility

September 12-15th (estimated) recovery from luteal and period

16th-21rst or 23rd: TIME OF STABILITY (bipolar/GAD/Depression and Borderline fade out)

23rdish-30th: Luteal dump one: mild to moderate bipolar manifestation

Then, October:

Around October 1rst: luteal dump two...........

Cycle repeats

During the luteal dump and almost to the period, I normally do one or two stupid things and have an episode. Stressors and unpredictable events create further problems. I was all sad and disassociated last week and then last Wednesday, I freaked out at the larger church. I go to the larger church due to my son and social obligations. I go to a smaller church when I am depressed and can't deal with upper middle class people and overt dogma.
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I use the audio Bible, the Gita and the Gayatri Mantra as ego protection and as a way of coping when the paranoia is high at work. The Gita is really for weirdos like me, but you can use the Bible.



This is why the Gita is important for someone like myself; it has traits of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I am poorly disciplined and am an auditory learner, so auditory conditioning goes into my subconscious and produces behavioral changes within, and I don't realize it, but I have to remain conditioned. The Indian spirituality assists in seeing God as Universal and keeps me in tandem with the addiction model of God as in the AA's Higher Power due to my family being formerly alcoholic.:

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3705702/

The idea of God within and the Atman centralizes the self control factor. Some indoctrination into the Hindu faith without direct worship of deity is paramount.

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One of the greatest blasphemies is the taking of one's freedom of thought, dictating matters of the heart and the theft of another's personal peace.

Everyday I live is an act of rebellion.

Maverick-a dissenter, an artist