This blog has more structure than other blogs. I have seen this style of forum before, but this style is primitive in other forums. I like this form. I think that this is very cool. I like the other folks with borderline. They are intelligent and know their therapies. That's wonderful.

I am listening to the Bible. The Bible has a lot of metaphors in it. There is a lot of patriarchical stuff in it. I'm not reading "Ezikiel." Oh my word. I've got it on Psalm 91 now.

I have some social awareness today.

I got the swing from the lady with whom I had had a conflict. She was okay. I listened to psalm 91 and now I've got the Hindi songs now. The Hindi makes me feel better. The Bollywood songs give me a boost. I once dated a Malaysian and it took. I now am married to a white guy with dark hair and dark hazel eyes. I prefer dark men. It just turns out that this is who I ended up with; it isn't about ethinicity. But I am thankful for my husband. He is a good man. He puts up with a whole lot.

My son is enjoying school and I think that it is wonderful. My daughter is going to basic training in about 6 days. I didn't raise her. She's gifted and she basically raised herself. She's very smart but I assure you that she didn't get that intelligence from me--She got it from both of the grandmothers.

My son has blossomed. He's interested in art and he likes his teacher. He enjoys "Halo" and he has diversified into the toys of Halo, so he's less into the game and just into the theme. Too much of the XBOX makes him scrappy, if you KWIM. His literacy is lacking and I guess that at some point we will have to get Sylvan involved. But he speaks well and he loves math. He's almost got the notion of the multiplication.

I've decided that starting September, I will go to one church one Sunday one Sunday and the other church the other Sunday.


I don't know what this means, but it's nice. It is from the movie "Once upon a time in Mumbai." Ishq means "passion" but that's all I know......................The words feel good to say.


http://www.lyricsmasti.com/song/8234/get_lyrics_of_Ye-Tune-Kya-Kiya.html

Ishq Woh Bala Hai
Ishq Woh Bala Hai
Jisko Chhuaa Isne Woh Jala Hai
Dil Se Hota Hai Shuru
Dil Se Hota Hai Shuru
Par Kambakht Sar Pe Chadha Hai
Kabhi Khud Se, Kabhi Khuda Se
Kabhi Zamaane Se Lada Hai
Itna Hua Badnaam Phir Bhi
Har Zubaan Pe Ada Hai

Ishq Ki.. Saazishein
Ishq Ki.. Baaziyaan
Haara Main Khel Ke
Do Dilon Ka Juaa

Kyun Tune Meri Fursat Ki
Kyun Dil Mein Itni Harqat Ki
Ishaq Mein Itni Barqat Ki
Ye Tune Kya Kiya..

Phiru Ab Maara Maara Main
Chaand Se Bichhda Taara Main
Dil Se Itna Kyun Haara Main
Ye Tune Kya Kiya..

Saari Duniya Se Jeet Ke Main Aaya Hoon Idhar
Tere Aage Hi Main Haara Kiya Tune Kya Asar

Main Dil Ka Raaz Kehta Hoon
Ke Jab Jab Saansein Leta Hoon
Tera Hi Naam Leta Hoon
Ye Tune Kya Kiya

Meri Baahon Ko Teri Saanson Ki Jo
Aadatein Lagi Hain Waisi
Jee Leta Hoon Ab Main Thoda Aur

Meri Dil Ki Ret Pe
Aankhon Ki Jo Pade Parchhai Teri
Pee Leta Hoon Tab Main Thoda Aur

Jaane Kaun Hai Tu Meri
Main Naa Jaanu Ye Magar
Jahaan Jaaun Main Karoon Main Wahaan
Tera Hi Zikar

Mujhe Tu Raazi Lagti Hai
Jeeti Hui Baazi Lagti Hai
Tabiyat Taazi Lagti Hai
Ye Tune Kya Kiya

Main Dil Ka Raaz Kehta Hoon
Ke Jab Jab Saansein Leta Hoon
Tera Hi Naam Leta Hoon
Ye Tune Kya Kiya

Dil Karta Hai, Teri Baatein Sunu
Saude Main Adhoore Chunu
Muft Ka Hua Ye Faayda
Kyun Khud Ko Main Barbaad Karoon
Fanaa Hoke Tunhse Miloon
Ishq Ka Ajab Hai Qaayda
Teri Raahon Se Jo Guzri Hain Meri Dagar
Main Bhi Aage Badh Gaya Hoon Thoda Hoke Be-Fikar

Kaho Toh, Kis Se Marzi Loon
Kaho Toh, Kis Ko Arzi Doon
Hansta Ab Thoda Farzi Hoon
Ye Tune Kya Kiya

Main Dil Ka Raaz Kehta Hoon
Ke Jab-Jab Saansein Leta Hoon....

Ishq Ki.. Saazishein
Ishq Ki.. Baaziyaan
Haara Main Khel Ke
Do Dilon Ka Juaa

I cleaned the house.

And when I say that I didn't raise my daughter, I mean that my ex husband raised her. When I was 25, I was psychotic and didn't know anything.