Name:Magnolia,

Age:~10 years old

Location:El Salvador,San Miguel

Died:October,7th,2013

Cause of death:"Put down"

Nothing is in vain Magno.Teleology not neccesary.Neither were you good girl.

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My mom just told me a few minutes ago.Family dog in El Salvador picked by my brother when she was a puppy during in either late '02 or early '03.he photos of her a few weeks before her passing,taken during my mom's trip to El Salvador last month.By then she turned away from the camera.Her teeth were in bad condition,she hobbled and going up staircases got painful for her.She was "put down".

Her coat had a uncanny resemblance an uncanny resemblance to a white and black coated pointer although in all likelihood she was probably just another run of the mill quasi-terrier,quasi-greyhound,whippet like dog like so many strays or not in El Salvador.My grandpa who oddly enuff for such a nice guy most of the time had a tendancy to hit her with a stick during the early days.The last time my sister went about ~2 yrs ago she was big and still healthy.It was just recently that things finally got to her,I suppose `_` .

To your new freedom Magnol .

I might extend the 90 days celibacy challenge to a hundred for the added boost of confirmation b/c of the #

Still gotta buy dental floss

Feel better now after the celebration.It wasn't such a big deal.

Remind myself not get brainwashed by thoughts and methods of war when looking up martial arts.This powerlifter person wants to be cop and has a friend who's in the army.Objectives for martial arts taught to such ppl are understandably different than what shown,made available and suggested for the common man.

I found a particulary encouraging book on job hiring called

"1,001 Phrases You Need to Get A JobThe "hire Me" Words That Set your Cover Letter, Resume, and Job Interview Apart By Nancy Schuman" .

I learned that navy blue font on a newspaper white paper is good,attractive and easy on the eyes to follow.

Scored awesome roasted chestnuts 4 my rice & cabbage.Tastes and has a txture a lot like my dad's prep of sugared butternut squash.

4got 2 buy dental floss.That's ok.Get some on way back.

I F---N KNEW I shouldn't have lcik on links about how liberal arts are "useless".It'll make me feel more f---n "deprimido" with the d--- tediousness of the APA assignment.

There's a receptionist girl who now works at the rec centre.I slight oppurtunistic chaser of going to fast food places,who while she helped me transition 2 the 2nd high school she soon didn't care much for me.Also for some reason when I volunteered she had it in her to randomly swear at me like so many dipcheeses who do that just b/c I'm taciturn.

I remind myself of how the sister I'm ambivalent to said that I have to learn not to take things always so personally.So has one of my counselors.You know it's just me "the-hardly-ever-socialized-and-socializes" and "the one who hardly talks b/c he doesn't want he little he says to be taken personally be ppl",so why the f--- not listen to them,hmm -_- ?.

God knows the work and apin it's taken for non-heteros to be accepted and socialize all across like regular ppl.Now how about that an austic hetero hmm -_- ?.I feel compelled to volunteer soon so as to not leave a resume gap.

There's articlesout there about how liberal arts are good.I dont have to be "internauting" right now to negate the negativity of what I just read againest liberal arts.

I feel bad I didn't read up the "hero cycle" for the written portion of the mythology test and I hope that the parts of the Theseus story and the make-shift terms I made for the 'Hero's cycle" phases are good enough .Gotta unlock the yoga DVD at the library.

I'm not gonna lie.*One way* that I get more socially comfortably quickly is if I were around a lot more Hispanic ppl my age.There's reasons 4 that but like many of the things I'd explain it's long and intricate.
Not something I wanna do right now.

It's a satisfying filling for me when I find a word that encapsulates a phenemona I've been wanting to describe.For ex.the word uncomfortable.Before I was 16-ish I understood in the sensory way of touch--like sitting on a "uncomfortable" couch,never in the emotional sense of something causing conscious strain.Had I known that I would've been able to describe how I felt about that school and around those teachers and might've left earlier.

My dad has a habit (with a complicated underlying origin I would guess) of calling his dad "the old man" and at least once calling him by his first name.The youngest maternal aunt I have has a semi-frequent habit of calling her parents "los viejitos (the old ppl) " instead of "Nana" and "Tata" like my cousins and I always have.I know that (at least with my aunt I think it's more so -~- ) done out of "carino" (think something roughly meaning and having the senitment of "caring fondness) but if I were to start calling my dad that,I could all to easily see myself using it in a bad and disrespetful habit sorta like how this morning while brushing my teeth while I stuck my tongue out to check it in the mirror I also did a facial gesture that I think he would make,thinking of how majorly disrespectful I'd become if I were to impersonate him.And with the predicatable curmedgeonly behavior he has that would be all to easy.

It's hard to think that my maternal grandpa used to be so strict according to my mom.I wonder if/hope that my dad will go done that route by the time of any grandchildren.

I went to a job fair today at the convention center but found it to be much smaller than the one yrs ago thru high school even though this fair was intended for adults.There's two good employment centers it seems."Path employment" specializes with the disabled it seems while "Goodwill career center" accomadates for special needs as well but also has a job networking club.