I have underwent for the past 1 and something months a heavy
usage of lenses,reflective lenses,contemplative lenses which
a ubiqutious *MOTIVE FALLACY* which I unwittingly operated
with and under ,the atttitude and sentiment of my aggression
and negativity being VERY present..cognitive oversight,lacunas,
bias resulting among the outcomes.--11:04 .p.m. 8/4/14

I ought to wait for a year or more until I am stable,once I am
caught up in different hobbies and topics away from hatred and
then once I am confident in myself, I look back on my diary entry
and then just reflect and then realize what positive changes I
have made.--11:05 .p.m.

Let that be my motivation to do that and never go back to that dark place
--11:06 .p.m.

Anticipate the positive things about to come--11:12 .p.m

Right now I'm at a vulnerable point that I hated and my bad was really bad to me. So I snapped at the boss,got angry at him and left the job on bad terms. I turned top,snapped at him,quit. So now I'm looking for a new job and I am at a weak point and I can drift off at another topic and it can form again. Like a "cipher" . I can end up hating that new thing. So I have to believe in myself.

So honestly what is recommended (by my borther)is that I find some workout plan and really stick to it. B/c it'll make me stronger physically ,it'll make me stornger mentally. ("And uh,I don't know") I gotta know myself. I got know my traits and the facts that they're hard to come across and then I'll become proud of myself. Ya gotta know yourself first and then you'll just begin to admire yourself. And then no one will bring you down because you know otherwise.--11:19 .p.m.

("That's some real ash s---bro"[high-five])

--done in together with my younger brother.

Hah!. I remember this .