I admit, I "bury myself" in information and stuff which entails being "mind-centric" b/c I hate socializing. I'm demonized b/c I don't socialize and I don't socialize b/c I'm demonized and at my age I just look really embarressing and it's quite friggin grating to pull off "-_- .

I would prefer consistently meaningful topical chit-chat than whatever the frig passes for "regular conversation" anyday. It's too bad I don't have a university degree on a topic, "-_- not that ppl who do have "prosperous" convversational lives. Many have been screwed over into jobs not much more different from what a high schooler can get and me think it' might make topical internet forums one of the few avenues to express that.

And their's ppl like me who have encountered very c---y circumstances I could go on about at the drop of a hat,who have attitudes arguably like that of a university educated intellectual but who are not "equipped" with the living work ethic to perform x type of quartney sector tasks both in a legimitate cognitive sense,as entailed by the job and in a more interpersonal sense when it comes to mingling with said co-worker who while very talented and maybe even more organic than me at pulling off said tasks aren't really all that pleasant to hand around.

"Your education will decide..who are and who you marry",(something like that) .Well d--- it Mr. H "=_= . i tried my best , b/c at least d-- it a lot of times it was the *only* thing I did =_=. And now all those good looking and talented intellectual women I could be clicking with will never even glance at me b/c of my lack of certifications for which I didn't achieve "higher" in being able to pull off a secured and neat job b/c https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seob92p7GSg ,and I'll never be able to mingle with them even though our attitudes and personalities might rub off each other =_= ._. .

Frig man!. Sometimes you just gotta get it out. I hate socializing that's less than meaningful and I'bve got a buncha qualifying criteria for what I conider meanigful. D--- if anyone *who I actually like* came to seek hanging out with me. i make no promises.