I have a feeling that there's something 2b said/there is going 2b something said about what I said in yestredays last blog entry.

One thing that makes me wonder about my state of mind is recalling something years ago.Years ago while walking home with a friend from school one day while we were talking I got so angry (what it was we were talking about I unfortunately forget `_` though I wish I knew what it was we were talking about) that I let my *"angry voice" out to talk.My friend soon after said "See.If I saw someone on the street do that [or be like that] I'd think they're retarded".I'm sorry if I offended anyone but I did not self censor that word b/c I believe it was being used in the right context of describing the exact thing not used as a out of context offensive put down (which drives me mad *'-_- ).This was about 5 yrs ago and a lot of things have changed since then 4 me but that just came up today in my mind.Actually *why did* it got brought up today `~` ?.I know that,that's not true (me being retarded) despite having me having a like personality disorder.

* this was during the days when I had exagerrated and hyped up thoughts about what would happen if I blew my top