It's pretty d--- irratating how paradoxically 4 someone like myself who doesn't talk very often my voice is booming and loud.My voice input and output are never equal.The way I hear my own voice (like on a recording) even bewilders me in how muffled,booming and bass filled it is (even after the stuff I know that happens like voice conduction) so much so that it hardly sounds anything like how I hear myself.It's sorta like if someone was using a lower grade version of those deep voice distorters that they use on shows when they try 2 keep the person anomoyous.-_- I can only imagine all those times of me doing karoke how flippin far off the voice output was from how I heard myself singing. It's so stupid!.Could it be years of musuc on my vocal cords from a dairy heavy diet?.I don't know.

For instance yestreday while trying 2 highlight a good pt. about playing video games since my brother likes those vapid,overly-hyped,mass-marketed,stupid "violence 4 the dsake of violence" COD games I brought out how what's really impressive in some games in the soundtrack and how they have like whole symphony orchestras work on them.Then my sister said "Omar [my middle name which my family calls me by] you talk so loudly!" which upset me made me walk off steaming with my parents scolding her soon after

Then and there,my whole nice talk that I planned out in order 2 drive the focus light away from the dang game my brother was playing derailed by the a trite expression by my sister who's studying 2b like a social worker of some sort with ppl like me prob.going 2b one of her "lighter" cases.

-_- Ack,yet another dumb obstacle that obstructs my communication with other ppl.