I did some stupid things at work. I wasn't careful.
I'm feeling very low.
I feel so stupid. I have to keep going although I don't want to. I don't have anywhere to go. I have to sit in this goddamn chair and be here or get yelled at.
I see now how my poor son feels. That poor child. God.
Half of me is anarchist and says to hell with the entire system. The other side of me says it is important to be moral. In that chariot-analogy thing from Plato, this must be the black horse white horse thing. I have that "thum" or passion that you aren't supposed to have. The white horse is the Don Quixote and the Black Horse, I guess is the Sleuth. Whichever, I let the black horse do some things.
I'm tired. I can't ever get anything right. Anti authoritarian. There just isn't a break anywhere.