It is kind of blah. The lamictal didn't give me much rest. I woke up at 2:00. I blasted my brother on FB for bashing Republicans, (old school NOT neocons, who are truly evil), over what I am paranoid over (which is Rockefeller and posse commitatus and that's it) and NOT Obama. I'm tired of him bashing libertarians, of which I am only in ideology NOT with economics.
I'm researching slut bashing and crabs in the barrel at work. I'm getting stronger. The next stage is to wear ear plugs and start working more. Right now. I have the ear plugs in so I shut out the co-workers. When bad schemas come up, I cry and that gets the population at work worked up. They enjoy me as the scapegoat. So far, I've overheard "She doesn't work" and "I know why that woman sits behind that computer" and "I con't give two dollars about what that woman has." I should have been suicidal and deceased by now but I fear death, so I'm still here. I have a strong will to survive. I do live in a living h*ll.
I used to look at the BG and now I am using both Christian AFrican American gospel and feminism as defenses to assist me. I will move onto other philosophers when I can.