12 freakin' more minutes and I'm outta here........batta batta out. Yes.......8 until, you heard it here first.............8 until..............11 minutes.........countin'..........

I forgot what I was wanting to talk about. Oh, now I remember.....Dude paid about 200 dollars on the 900 dollar water bill..........Yes, you heard me...........900 bucks.

They are supposed to turn the water on either today or Monday, but I suspect it will really be Tuesday when they turn the water back on.

I cannot tell you what hell it has been, although now I can make it on 2 gallons of water a day. I cannot imagine what it is like living in a third world country or even the camp in Jordan where all the Syrians live.

7 minutes..............

The thirty somethings are still here. I don't entirely like them. One is sometimes nice but then goes back into snob mode. I don't know about the new guy........he sort of gives me the creeps a bit.....

Oh, Joy.........Well, I tried. I can barely read a map. I say more than i should. The receptionist wanted to take off early so I was dispatched up here. Big mistake. The reporters are still here, talking amongst themselves. I'm 45, so you know I am old and domestic and washed up. I dont' know how intelligent or unintelligent I sound, but I am sure that I sound like I dont' know what I am doing.

4:47 "She this..........." God. I hate crap like this. It sucks. My paranoia is high. I am trying though.......trying to be professional and trying to keep it together. I hate this crap. This always happens.

4:48 My husband is at the church accross the street cleaning up the mess that the homeless cooks left behind from Grace Place. HE had to run errands and the boss man was mean to him for leaving for a couple of hours. No doubt that my son is watching the tv over there.

7 minutes............

I'd leave at 10 until but I know how strict it has become here.......................................................

It's Friday, Nov 8th and I am sitting here like a racehorse at the gate. I am so sick and tired of sitting here. We have an obstructed highway and people are asking ME yes, ME the incompetent red headed stepchild of this organization WHAT TO DO. Riiiiiiiiiight. So many times we could be sued, yes.

Folks are headed down another highway, one that runs parallel to the interstate. Good luck. Jeesus. Yes, I meant to misspell that.

So, I've exhausted this forum.......I've exhausted Icarus Project.......I've exhausted my phone........I've exhausted my TV actor obsession/flavor of the month..........I've exhausted nearly every source of entertainment there is to sit here for twenty more minutes and watch the clock.

Man, the Highway Patrol dispatcher is calling me trying to figure out what to tell people. This isn't good. Earlier today, I helped a Hispanic, BTW to get their birth certificate translated into English, but I dont' know if they will get the help that they need. I go too far in Public Service sometimes.

My son and my husband are accross the street. I am looking forward to the long weekend. There is a cookout and I am expected to go but my Pentacostal friend wants me to go to something and after the scares of this week (the dementia type symptoms and the water being off for 8 days) I am thinking seriously of just hanging out with her instead of going allllllllllllllllllllllll the way out to the countryside at dark thirty roasting marshmallows with a bunch of Church of Christers. Just dunno.

I will return to my obsession tonight, high off of my antipsychotic, which will put me in a drugged happiness and I will dream yet again in surreal bliss.

I just hope that the calls stop. I am not good at answering the phone.
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It is now 4:38.

OMG>.................

Time is so SLOW!

I'm a gross person because we live hand to mouth. Our house is gross. Our life is gross. Everything is gross. Someone at work said "She's just nasty" and I wonder if that was about me.

Everything is nasty because we barely survive.

I try my best not to be nasty but it just turns out that way.

I'm depressed. I have to close my office at 2:00 and go upstairs to answer the phone.

I'm tired. I have had a difficult morning.

I helped a person with something concerning Civil Rights but I don't know if I went to far.

In any case, I am now exhausted and want to go home, but I have to stay unti 5:00.

I'm so nasty. Whatever.

2 valerian
2 melatonin
the last of the lamictal
1 rhisperdol

And now, I am heartsick, which also happens. I erased all of my photos of the person off of my computer and will soon shred the picture I have of the person. Yep. Heartsick again.

I'm just gone. I have ten minutes now at least.

I know that at some point I will have to resign.

God.

I'm scared.

Damn ######6 Lewy Body dementia.