Despite the wack-a-doodle-ness of yestreday's blog entry I'm not *suicidal.I'm feeling better wuith no intention on smoking or stealing.Those stupid thoughts came to me the same way some of the dumber youth entrenched in net culture have said that STUPID "FML".It's one to say how unpleasant your life is b/c of shallow stuff.It's another to be shallow enough to not see that your shooting yourself in the foot by acting like your invoking obloquy on yer own existence,dumba---s -_- .Even f----n *I * DONT do that-->make things worse that way 4 myself.

By "killing" the negative voice off I meant the habit I have made of doing audio journal logs.Make sure you have a decently working computer with a functional sound recorder,talk to your hearts content,save the file,put it away somewhere secret like a cloud drive,repeat.My mind goes faster than my mouth not by that much but it goes faster than my hands on a keyboard or with a pencil,by which time my thoughts could've changed twice before getting past finishing writing a word or as one teacher found it to be and as I found out thru a counselor "a doodling".That dumba--- -_-...well she was okay I feel like saying that b/c she was a dumba--- 4 thinking my act of writing (as ugly a--- as I admit it to be) was me drawing.God I find that so insulting -_-..

She was a nice person who's past I wont get into and here I am worried that she might work at the college now ....the stupid s--- I got change

D--- homework to do.Wish I could get an extension on my socio work like make it due in 3 days when I've come back to my sense...

*Though I keep putting off and telling myself to do a posting on the long time ago when such things crossed my mind -_-.Tricky part is it *sorta* goes hand-in-hand with another posting I'd like to make.