Yes I missed another great day to do my homework -~- .Plus side personalized for me?,I've been working out (in writing) two issues.Both related to the ethnicities of girls I've liked in the past.

There's an old fb msg that I've edited names out of and a last bit that I sent to a girl (one of my sister's friend/one who pecked me..while drunk -_-) where I go on explaining why my preference for East Asian women on a physical basis.

Nothing fueled by stereotyped personalities here.God knows I'd grow infuriated if that was being done on me,an Hispanic guy far from hyper-macho stereotypes =~= ..

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[4-21-13]
Hi ...I don't know how to start this off but I'll say beforehand that this is a longa---- msg full of questions that might be of the "TL;DR" variety which is imposing enough to have it deleted right off the bat.It might be better to take your time with this one.... you can already guess on paper this is goes on for a while which is why I woud've liked to have talked about these things in person but I'm impatient for thi,dont want it to drag on for too long and unfortuntely to the disadvantage of you/us having a IRL *dialogue* with me about this I've decided to write this.On the plus side with this one-sided approach I've gathered my thoughts fully here.

First part:a more full explanation of why I like Asian girls..I've said this to... before when I revealed my preference to her (while telling her that it doesn't mean I like her) and I'll say it to you.I like dark jet black smooth textured hair,the flat round faces common with you guys which helps all the more to nicely present your features including broad wide and high cheekbones complimenting beautiful uniquely gracefully eyes which have a "long" appearance that kind of gives the impression of *always* focused and thinking.Unlike my eyes which are big and will make total changes depending on if I'm joyful,angry,excited,scared etc those eyes of yours have a consistency to them regardless of expressed mood.As someone who's mostly had trouble his whole life with making eye contact..I guess you can say that doing that is easier if it's someone (esp.a girl) with eyes like that " .It's only one a greater thing imo that those features are so common with you guys .Since I'm guessing that a common bonding activity is staring off at each other I would gladly be lost in someones eyes for while''^-^ .

Despite all the dumba---- ridicule you guys get I really think that's why many non Asians like you guys whether they admit it or not whther they know that's what captivates them or not.I mean how many other ethnic groups can pull it off often?.I mean you see it in Hispanic women as well but not that often.I don't really think it's much more likely I'd see it if I lived in an Hispanic filled area like a southern state like Texas,Florida or California.It makes feel bad for all the things I hear about Asian girls getting surgery done on their eyelids and even the intended effect that's sometimes ppl try to get with makeup.

Of course all those features I listed out take their own individual tweaks with you.You have a gentle,kind inviting face,nice ears and even have darker skin (which I like).That's just what I can think off the top of my head.Here's the thing about your outer apperance,if I ever felt like rreeallyy going on about how your appearance in particular is pleasant:do you remember that time that....tipped you off to that "thatsmyface.com" website where you could how you'd like older and as a person of a different ethnic group before we meet?.See something that I found actually more interesting then that is at the bottom it gives REALLY detailed specifications about a person's facial features,asymmetrical features and skin.

There's a sliding scale of like -10 to 10 where it compares your features to models it has of different facial nuances like mouth protusion,nose size,cheeks shape,forehead,brow size etc.Now if I rrrreeealllyy felt like going on about your look (this can be done with anyone who's picture is on that website for that matter) I could prob.get enough details that a plastic surgeon or forensic artist could use it for big help on a facial reconstruction n_n .
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I guess you can say that in the end as far as external appearances go I'm a "sucker" for dark esp.black smooth hair,eyes with epicanthal folds and dark skin "^u^ .That's it for external appearance.I can't seem to talk much about your personality unfortuntely.What I can say is that your very open to what others say and have been so receptive to what I express so far n_n .I mean how else would I have felt that I had enough freedom to express all this ?. All those analyzed figures on faces on that site (my own being there like thrice) makes me ask this.`_` You don't find me “cute” based on any outer appearance do you?.Your inebriated action to me which had to act on a thought that still works when your sober I'm guessing and your follow up clarification to me makes me think otherwise.Although you said it's my personality that you like between an accidental pecking and telling me after that I am cute after..if I can have the privilege of knowing b/c it's still like some hardly believable like "cosmic" mystery to me..`_` is there something you find honestly *"physically" o~O* attractive about me?.I mean h--- even I think I range from homely ugliness to "meh" plain.

No muscle,bug eyes with a permenant lazy,sleepy gaze and bags around them that makes my skin bumpy and greyish enough to make it look like I have silverish eye liner ,a really heavy brow and chin,big forehead,fairly thick lips only badly emphasised by my messy-ish moustache,skin that's consistently pale (lucky Willis in contrast '-_-) when it's not fickly changing with the seasons that's really unclear,hair and blemish covered only making me look even older and haggard...and I'm suppose to believe that someone *LIKES* this '~' ?.Dont get me wrong.If you've overlooked all that and like me solely b/c of my personality I'm *"NOT COMPLAINING o_o*" it's just that,that all is heavily at odds with girls finding me pleasant looking that I'm apparently "attractive".
You know the word "cute" when not used for describing babies and products meant to look infantile raises a lot of questions for me.It means attractive in an "innocent" way doesn't it?.I'm NOT innocent and my appearance doesn't help convey that.Do ppl get subconciously like so jaded with life as they get old that (besides younger=healthier and fertile) things that look whimisically younger actually are attractive b/c they subconsicously remind ppl of something more innocent and not limited by the crud they've trudged thru life?.

'_' Something else that I"d like to ask a bit more directly.Where did you disclose to... about my condition?.I'm not angry or anything.Actually after telling you I felt that I might as well tell both [my siblings] when the place was right.Just when I was beating around the bush with giving them clues..said that "it starts with an A... told me" which for me made feel like it "darn it " sort of like how when a person figures out what there gift is even though you were keeping it a surprise for a special occasion.You told her b/c you feeled that as my sister she was obligated to know `~` ?...you din't mention the psych forum posting I made did you '-' ?.It's all good now.
You know the good thing about my condition (aside from it being a mild form in the first place) is that it's "strength" on me is *SIGNIFICANTLY* less then what it used to be.Let me put it this way:if we had meet in like kindergarten it would have been a wonder if you had been able to get a peep out of me.I've grown GREATLY out of it,as it is possible.[my siblings] have been my life time witnesses to this.

Yet even then I strongly feel that a LOT of my communication problems would've diminished much more heavily,comfortably and sooner by something as simple as if I had taken up journal writing like back when I was a 4 years old and used pictures or something if I hadn't learned the alphabet beforehand.You can rightfully find more justification to be more "weirded out" by my.."checkered" personal developmental history of sociability then a person's orientation imo.*Sigh* ._. SO MUCH I'd time travel back to change if I could...yes if my writing style weren't a slight indication ;I I do have a personal journal.

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""^u^,uhehe ''^_^ how I've developed in a span little more than a year and almost a month since then...Nice to have gotten two things I've long I've awaited to get outta my system during these past 3 days.