Oh dear '~' . Just ~2 mnutes ago I went to the kitchen and saw the saucepan with the water I previously put in all boiled out and the stove still on at max. " ^~^ I admit that things like that happen sometimes.

"Animation itself is the hard copy of psychological memory"--Paul Wells

I admit, I "bury myself" in information and stuff which entails being "mind-centric" b/c I hate socializing. I'm demonized b/c I don't socialize and I don't socialize b/c I'm demonized and at my age I just look really embarressing and it's quite friggin grating to pull off "-_- .

I would prefer consistently meaningful topical chit-chat than whatever the frig passes for "regular conversation" anyday. It's too bad I don't have a university degree on a topic, "-_- not that ppl who do have "prosperous" convversational lives. Many have been screwed over into jobs not much more different from what a high schooler can get and me think it' might make topical internet forums one of the few avenues to express that.

And their's ppl like me who have encountered very c---y circumstances I could go on about at the drop of a hat,who have attitudes arguably like that of a university educated intellectual but who are not "equipped" with the living work ethic to perform x type of quartney sector tasks both in a legimitate cognitive sense,as entailed by the job and in a more interpersonal sense when it comes to mingling with said co-worker who while very talented and maybe even more organic than me at pulling off said tasks aren't really all that pleasant to hand around.

"Your education will decide..who are and who you marry",(something like that) .Well d--- it Mr. H "=_= . i tried my best , b/c at least d-- it a lot of times it was the *only* thing I did =_=. And now all those good looking and talented intellectual women I could be clicking with will never even glance at me b/c of my lack of certifications for which I didn't achieve "higher" in being able to pull off a secured and neat job b/c https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seob92p7GSg ,and I'll never be able to mingle with them even though our attitudes and personalities might rub off each other =_= ._. .

Frig man!. Sometimes you just gotta get it out. I hate socializing that's less than meaningful and I'bve got a buncha qualifying criteria for what I conider meanigful. D--- if anyone *who I actually like* came to seek hanging out with me. i make no promises.

I'm starting to get this feeling that nobody *wants* to be around me and hence one reason I've always had a difficulty in making friends.
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You know there's a certain element of "saying things out in public" on a blog,you know that?.

So many attractive ppl,so "alive" old and young at the Burlington music festival I went to yesterday. It's interesting how everyone seems attractive now. "Beautiful people" by Chris Brown comes to mind.

Not too many catchy songs which get at a broader sympathy aimed at human community other than solely romantic love. It'd be nice if the idea caught on.

I'm starting to realize how even w/ really inappropriate songs it might be that the instrumentals are the catchy part to me (ex."Black skinhead" by Kanye West and since I'm hearing it now "Bedrock" by Young Money).

The garbage I went thru at the first high school I went to---all those times I told myself to 'suck it up,thinking I was weak--that *wasn't* true.

The teachers I encountered I have no doubt left unhealthy impressions not just on the already maladjusted but *girls* as well, esp. with the silly oblivious semi-macho "our gang" underlying a lot of the male teachers and their nepotism, having known one another back before the high school was built and there was an "all boys" school... -~- I don't care if that school was at one pt. taught by clerics, but no disrespect to their "pastoral ability" but imo as (and I know I might be stereotyping personalities here) seeing as how "less than kinesthetically inclined workers/'intellectual' ppl" might lean at least a little bit on the side of the adjective 'nebbish' , I doubt that any effectual engagement would've been done to prevent a/o mitigate the "our gang" attitude of the male teachers when they were teens.

-~- That and how gender intersectionality's significance hadn't caught on the same way even as fairly recently as the mid 90's as it now,without even having to get into details on how it'd be pulled off in a 'Catholic' school >~< "-~- .
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Sometimes I imagine the voices of teachers I've disliked including my (first main community college lab instructor) saying "well suck it up buddy","that's your problem", "You get it ?" with an underlying intimidating expression ready to scowl and stupid undertones. What get's to me is how two teachers who I liked (one who did stuff involving cross-country and who taught my sister g.9 English and the other something of a hockey coach who's class I actually got thru in spite of late '07 garbage) were associated/friends with the real estate agent and the geography teacher who got together sometimes with the real estate agent.

<"-_- I can imagine something of a stupid laugh from the real estate agent..zoom out and fade like if it was animated movie supervillian>.
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