I dont want 2b like my dad and I actually dont like how ppl say I look like my dad.Maybe I'll get more in2 this later.

"You made your own bed and now you have to sleep in it","You made your own bed and now you have to sleep in it","You made your own bed and now you have to sleep in it" is the thing that keeps repeating in my mind >:( !.

I know that I "should" be spending my time doing this irratating HTML practice but it's like everytime I don't me own mind criminalizes me for not doing so with an old quote from a great sci teacher I had.

Look I know that "I should" be doing my work but here's the thing about it.Like with MANY understated things about the actual doing of work,there's sometimes a point when running around btw the things u need 4 the task is a hassle.A hassle that makes the work an irratating turn-off 2 do if it isn't like that already!.

As much as I like cracked.com 4 escapist humour that makes me actually have laughs and has writing styles enough to make me see humour writing in a diffferent light I must try to avoid it's hilarious lures in the next few days or else I'll end up blowing time away like I did yestreday as celebrating how I'm the outcomes 2 me failing aren't "that bad" .

It's pretty d--- irratating how paradoxically 4 someone like myself who doesn't talk very often my voice is booming and loud.My voice input and output are never equal.The way I hear my own voice (like on a recording) even bewilders me in how muffled,booming and bass filled it is (even after the stuff I know that happens like voice conduction) so much so that it hardly sounds anything like how I hear myself.It's sorta like if someone was using a lower grade version of those deep voice distorters that they use on shows when they try 2 keep the person anomoyous.-_- I can only imagine all those times of me doing karoke how flippin far off the voice output was from how I heard myself singing. It's so stupid!.Could it be years of musuc on my vocal cords from a dairy heavy diet?.I don't know.

For instance yestreday while trying 2 highlight a good pt. about playing video games since my brother likes those vapid,overly-hyped,mass-marketed,stupid "violence 4 the dsake of violence" COD games I brought out how what's really impressive in some games in the soundtrack and how they have like whole symphony orchestras work on them.Then my sister said "Omar [my middle name which my family calls me by] you talk so loudly!" which upset me made me walk off steaming with my parents scolding her soon after

Then and there,my whole nice talk that I planned out in order 2 drive the focus light away from the dang game my brother was playing derailed by the a trite expression by my sister who's studying 2b like a social worker of some sort with ppl like me prob.going 2b one of her "lighter" cases.

-_- Ack,yet another dumb obstacle that obstructs my communication with other ppl.

MAN,I LOVE how on this site you can save a draft of an entry long b4 you actually post it!.It awesome so you can give it lots and lots of thought b4 you think it's polished and ready to go!.I think I'll start a journal instead of continuing this blog from now on.Maybe...