--For the past few days I haven’t been doing accounting or Microsoft Word stuff; arguably the more responsible thing to do. Instead I’ve been working on the final two units of math in the last booklet I have to do.

-Finished organizing stuff in notes for submitting after having seen a counselor on Thursday.

-Took a risk: decided not to make a ‘double copy’ w/stuff written in Spanish. Worrying about possible ‘moral ___ ‘ by being ‘expedient’ that way imo.

-Went to a ‘follow-up’ appointment yesterday morning as I have been doing for weeks now, while in a mindfulness activity related group I am in; explained current school worries to the person.

-Went over stuff about acceptance. Before the stuff about actually interacting with ppl which will be covered in the following weeks.

-Was kind of ‘touchy-ish’; I’m very thankful for her having written ‘take-away’ notes meant for me.
-Contacted sister. Went to ‘Red Hill learning center’.

-Person who I’m submitting it to told me that I only have exactly one year from the I register to finish the course.

[Etc,etc,etc]

3 courses:

-1 I don’t think I ‘can’ even fail but would not like to ‘under-attend’ to, not the least b/ I wouldn’t like to let the teacher down (accounting)

-1 in which I think I might wind up having ‘more or less’ the same marking entering the exam as I did last year when I failed the course by ~5%; I have issues with any one entry which has more than an attached 20% grade impact to it---this concerns me

-1 high school course which I can rant in a ‘negative like way about’…with the submission of the final booklet on what came off to me as ‘the second easiest unit’, it is more likely that the current mark which ¾ ‘covered’ will remain the same or even increase a little bit; according/after to a talk with certain tutors with 70% of the course ‘on lock’, hypothetically I could not even attend the exam with attached to 30%, and still pass by the marginal amount which I have craved.

-This has to be done before the 18th of December. The third week of December which begins with a 13; .i.e. the same week as the community college exams I’m taking. An appointment on Friday of that week; I think I’ll go write the exam at latest on December the 15th.

My understanding notwithstanding.
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“A stalemate where everyone has a weapon pointed at someone else. All the threats are equally balanced to ensure a mutual disadvantage; no one is walking away from this standoff with what they came for.” –the first paragraph on tvtropes of what a ‘Mexican stand-off’ is.

What ‘neutrality’ might mean to me with my negative like attitude or world-view or such…what I’m tempted to draw comparisons of this too.

Thank you for being here for when it comes to outcomes. Etc,etc,etc.