i can't stop the feeling that being abused made me tainted, like my purity was stolen. i keep thinking that no one would want to be with me because of it. i want to feel clean, pure, like nothing ever happened.
however, one cannot alter the course of time. this is how things are and it's no use trying to change it. being abused does not make me impure, i am not worth less because of it. i just need a decent human being who will not treat me like garbage.