right after i last wrote i began taking my meds. he gave me 3; 2 i should take regularly and 1 to take when i'm feeling really anxious at night. i took all 3 on the first day because of the whole situation with my mother. half an hour later i was really sleepy and my body felt like i was drunk. i went to bed and slept for 11 hours straight. i woke up at noon and the rest of my day was good, i managed to practice music and didn't get hooked up in a bad way on anything. at night i didn't take the anxiety med (it's the only one with a black label, which it my country means it's an addictive, potentially dangerous substance) and i didn't feel sleepy. today i woke up feeling tired like $#%^, went to sunday mass, felt really weird there (almost like i needed to stretch my muscles all the time and i was also somewhat shaky), then came back home, practised my instrument and now i'm REALLY sleepy even though i didn't sleep so little (i had about 6:30 hours sleep). i'm going to call the psychiatrist tomorrow and ask if this is normal for the first days only or if i'm gonna be like this all the time. good news is, i'm not feeling anxious or depressed. i'm gonna get some sleep now because later i'll be going to the opera