coming out as gay;
not knowing what will happen with my cousin who abused me. i can't tell because it would ruin my family and my grandmother would not resist;
being incapable of establishing a romantic relationship;
being incapable of having any emotionally satisfying relationships at all;
compensating everything by studying so much even what i don't have to;
losing hope of being able to study on europe after i graduate.
i just wish i had been born in a rich literate family without pedophiles