spent my friday and saturday on a depressive episode. today i was fairly depressed as well but i can say i am not on my worse. i believe the medication must be working since i'm having shorter episodes. on friday i reinstalled the hookup app after being impatient because the guy i've been flirting with was busy and i haven't uninstalled it yet. i only talked to this guy i had sex with a couple times already. i'm pretty much ignoring the other ones. i didn't have sex with anyone. on friday i tried to masturbate after a very long time and i think the medication prevents me from reaching orgasm. i felt even less pleasure than usual. i'm starting to feel repelled about the guy i've been flirting with, probably because i felt the sex compulsion coming and my first instinct is to get away from people who belong to my real life. good news is, even depress i managed to practice and that gave me quite a lot of satisfaction about myself. and also i don't know if that's good news but my mother noticed that i was depressed for the first time ever.