my previous entry hasn't even been approved and i'm already writing a new one. this is something that has happened before, but i don't think it happened with such intensity. i woke up today feeling horrible and depressed and wrote about it. i can't tell exactly when it changed, but it was already dark when i realized i was feeling really happy. it was when i was selecting sheet music to bring to a class with the teacher i said i disliked being around. i got out of the class feeling really happy and excited about when we'll met again and eager to practice and make my best for the next class and thinking about how nice he is to me and how good of a teacher he is. i do still feel uncomfortable around him probably because i don't know him that well and also probably because he's a man, but still, today was awesome. now it's past 3 a.m. and i can't sleep because i'm so happy and i just want to laugh and jump and play music forever! i want to have a perfect technique. i will go to bed now and focus until i fall asleep. i hope i wake up tomorrow feeling half as good as i do now. i notice that i frequently feel like this at night but it very seldom happens during the day. i wonder if this is a thing for other people as well. it bothers me since i can't play music during the night or i'll wake everyone up lol