well, it turns out, now i believe i am actually not bipolar but i do lean towards it. i'll be off my meds very soon and despite the recent misunderstanding i wrote about on my last post that whole incident made me feel much better about myself in the end, and my mental health is also much better. i did feel strongly inclined towards having anonymous sex again but i guess it has stopped working for me - at the moment at least, i guess not once and for all. i've suffered enough not to be so naive.
meanwhile, i still have no money, work too little towards getting money and need money more and more each day. i wish so much something happened that could magically grant me a lot of money