I had a busy day today at work, I arrived one hour earlier and I thought I would leave earlier...silly me.

I do like my job but sometimes it's just too much. Too much work, too much pressure,too many thing to do in so little time, but keeping myself busy is what helps me to not think about myself or what awaits at home.

I was thinking about leaving to somewhere where I do apply what I learned at school, but I get frustrated 'cause I'll earn less that what I earn at my current job. Just to be clear I'm not 100% about money, but it is nice to have it XD.

If I were to leave I would probably pick the same position I'm at. I have experience and I would get probably a little more or the same that i earn now, but then again it would be the same pressure, the same stress, so I'll stay there for now.

After all, i've grown there, I've learned so much and met many people there, I get along with almost everyone and it's near home, i get paid well...so....yeah

I guess all this rambling is to keep myself from leaving....or maybe to push myself to leave? I don't know! Everytime i think about it I get so confused! there are pros and cons to both ways..

one thing that does stop me is him, i have to admit it, as much as it hurts, but i guess one step forward is admitting the truth.