well its been a funny kind of day. some bits really nice and other bits....CRAP!! i hate that those crap bits seem to drown out the good bits...well im trying really hard not to let these crap bits steal the good times from me like they normally seem to do.....a big problem has come up today, ive got to remember that it may not be all my fault like a certain person seems to convince themself but i must sort it out coz its important to me.

Im telling you what i dont think there any one in the world who can upset, hurt and bring out all the negative and angry bits out of me apart from my family, i dont get how every single time it results in me feeling like i have done today and still feel now - just now on a calmer level.