I really really hate me today,i dnt no why I jst wont stop lookin in the mirror.all it is doin is makin me feel so sad,and so ugly and so...jst horrible. I keep telling myself that I know im nt as bad as I think I am.,but I cant help it. Had to go to hairdressers today to sort out my disaster yesterday.i cnt even look in the mirror without thinkin, 'who is that person,thats not me'. Was meant to b going to my lil boys friends earlier but I felt to consious about myself,like in her head (the mum) she would be laughing at me or feeling sorry for me...now we are meant to be going to my brothers...i hope it dont turn out like it did the other week,il end up walking out if it does. Oh well,here goes. I wish I could jst stay in for a month.x