I feel anxious...heart beating fast, stomach is full of worry, cant focus to do anything

I dont know why...i am angry at myself for cutting yesterday!!!! I am more angry with myself that i feel the need to tell my friend what i did...i feel like a child, i feel like why do i need to tell her..for attention??

I also have appointment with my consellor later and maybe im worried about that..its onlybeen 2 weeks but feels like havent seen him for a month...cant even remember what we last spoke about..i dont know what im meant to talk about this week??!!!

It prob doesnt help that i had a lil smoke just now also...it doesnt help me when i already feel anxious...