I am such a sap i swear!! Its my little boy's last day in nursery school and I just feel so sad. I knew id feel like this today. Ive been trying to tell myself these last weeks with the school year coming to an end and that im only getting nervous and anxious about it because of the fact that my son growing up and leaving nursery etc...and it is this but if im being totally honest, its just another time where i have become attached. I really like his teachers and his headteacher knew a few things that happened recently and i just feel so sad that i have to move on from this time and these people, what a geek!!!!!

Its like the way i felt throughout school is repeating itself on me as an adult. I remember that every half term holiday etc i would always feel really sad, i didnt understand why i was like it as the time (i dont think) but now i realise it was all down to me becoming attached to the teachers etc.

This sounds like a right exageration, and it probably is, but i feel that becoming attached with people over the years has brought with it a continuous feeling of loss and loss always hurts people, and sometimes it feels that i am constantly becoming hurt inside because of the sadness i feel when attachment is severed.

I hate goodbyes and feel them as a bereavement. They always make me cry and feel like I have lost something. My therapist pointed out to me that I have had bad experiences of good bye such as the fire in Africa, my Dad dying and going to boarding school. I wonder if you have had bad experiences too. I am terrified of saying goodbye to her too but she says there can be such a thing as good goodbyes too. I am skeptical but she is very good so we shall see. Perhaps you should have a think and see if you have experienced any bad goodbyes that could be contributing to how you are feeling.

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Bereavement is the word i wanted to use ha, but thought i might sound a bit to much, but thats exactly how it feels...i think. Im really sorry about your father.xx I dont think i can recall any bad goodbyes...but to be honest i have very few memories through my whole life, it quite wierd, the fact i remembe so little really gets me down actually. Oh well...
Its more that i grow really attached to certain people, look upto them and want them to care etc etc, blah blah. I hate that in my head i feel close to that person (just in general, not just from today) and then they just...are gone!!

Bereavment! that is the word i wanted to use but i thought i may sound like im exagerating. But it really is isnt it! Im sorry about your father.x

I dont think ive had any bad goodbyes,(well none that i can recall, my memory is really not good at all, it gets me down a lot at the moment,its like most of my life is a blank) i think its just more that i become to attached to certain people so much (even if it just in my mind) and just as i begin to feel trust or try to open up people either change their mind and dont want to know me (and i dont blame them) or theres a reason for ending a relationship, such as teachers, counsellers etc. I HATE soooo much that I become so attached to people.

Thanks Cracked

Ye, I can imagine that having to say goodbye to your therapist will be hard, ive only ever been in short term therapy until now and that felt emotional, but by the sounds of it she wouldnt make you to say goodbye untill you are ready..keep that in your head when the time comes.xx

Thanks hon and thinking of you

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