News of Hope

Hi,

How are you all? This is my first post, I've never been here before. I'm kind of at a point in my life where I've noticed that I need to abandon some old coping skills, but I'm not really sure how to go about it. I've psyche tested as normal, which proves to me that the system is insane. Don't take any meds or none of that.

I had a series of adverse life ...

I have just realized a problem that I have...verbal abuse.
I have not been this way my whole life, but this problem of mine has definitely gotten worse up until now. It is a terribly destructive characteristic and I have to change because I am at risk of losing people around me that I really care about.

I have told my girlfriend that I am going to change. I swear I am gonna change. I ...

Watchmen (and science) gave me hope when I was suicidal. It may seem pathetic but here's the quote that did it:


Dr. Manhattan: I don't think your life is meaningless.
(...)
Laurie: You don't?
Dr. Manhattan: No.
Laurie: But... listen, you've just been saying life *is* meaningless, so how can...?
Dr. Manhattan: I changed my mind.
Laurie: But...*why*?
Dr. Manhattan: Thermodynamic miracles... Events with odds against so astronomical they're effectively impossible, like oxygen spontaneously becoming ...

I had hope until I started reading about the state of the US and the possibility of world war 3. That did get to me..

Im sort off waking up a bit from dissociative disorder!!

The wake up is not a permanent solution to the problem. More a part of me is able to wake up and has been for a while. I am present and can look inside myself and see all the mass ...

Everyday I will do the following to avoid lapsing into a sociopathic caricature .

1.Compliment someone who probably doesn't get complimented much.
2.Take 30 minutes to focus plans/daydreams on having a good job, wife, kids, and home.
3.Apologize (anonymously...) to someone I've hurt.

dug up and burned all my journals, crime articles,books on killers, trophies ect

I want...no i need hope. motivation to change has to be somewhere

Hello everyone,
i am new in this forum , me very glad to see all the members of this forum , so please welcome me guys, thanks....

I am taking suggestions. I cannot keep going how i am going. I cant change things fast enough. I waited too late to get help and progress is minimal. I know some people cant make it. Some people lead tragic lives. Some people arent cut out for this.

How do i give up other than suicide. What other towel can i throw in. What can i do.

Hi:

One of the gruesome realities of my condition was , is, the loss of self. I think that can change.

Im a man. a long long time ago and in the beginning I came from a heart braking early life that wanted to crush every feeling and personal idea out of my head as fast as possible. And it almost happened. What happened instead, I ended up looney. Now Im questioning what it would ...

Well, do you? Listen to this song. It motivated me to do my toughest workout ever today. :mrgreen:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cm1cLOMH_jw

Funny how a song can instill a sense of great purpose into an everyday task. Try it out!

Hey all -

I've been thinking lately about how my home life has affected the way I have grown intellectually.

There are so many opportunities that I didn't take due to having depression for so many years. For example I got into two different governors' schools but I didn't go to either of them. Those would have helped me learn to socialize better and understand more on an intellectual level. I would have probably had ...