The last time I went to WW the lady who weighed me made me feel so bad I quit.

When I decide to lose weight I drop pounds quickly. I usually lose several pounds right away then the next week I’ll gain a pound back and that’s the pattern- that’s what’s normal for me. But Tall Lady wouldn’t listen to me. EVERY time I got on the scale she’d tsk-tsk me. “Are you eating enough? You know you can’t starve yourself.” “Well, what did you do wrong? You need to figure out why you gained 2 lbs.” “When I lost I did it 0.2 lbs at a time.”

I kept telling her I’m not doing anything different week-to-week it’s just how my body losses weight. I even have my old WW books from years ago showing my progress. But she wouldn’t listen to me.

One week I did mess up a little- I ate a jar of my gramma’s garlic oyster crackers. I didn’t think it was that big of a deal, but when I got on the scale I gained 4 lbs. Tall Lady didn’t miss her chance, “How does someone gain FOUR POUNDS in ONE WEEK?” She said just as I was getting off the scale and said it like she was talking to herself, but loud enough I think almost everyone heard.

I was mortified and devastated. I was so embarrassed it took conscious effort to stay for the meeting. Props for me I didn’t give up right then, but I think my spirit was crushed and lay slowly dying. The next week I came back and lost 6 lbs. Net 2 lbs lost. I figured I must’ve retained water from all the sodium in the crackers. Not that Tall Lady cared she just called me over and recited her weight loss and reiterated that I shouldn’t starve myself.

For those of you who have never been to a WeightWatchers meeting weigh-ins are supposed to be kept confidential and only revealed if the participant offers that information. She violated my right to privacy and respect. Now I feel bad because I didn’t speak up, and I let her discourage me from my journey. It’s almost 9 months later and I know I’ve gained back all but 5 lbs of when I started last time.

I’d really like to go back, but I’m afraid of being targeted again.