News of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Forum

I'm an assistant coach at a jiu-jitsu academy and opened the academy for an open training session this past weekend. A lady came in at the end of class to do a few minutes of cardio kickboxing and asked another student about the schedule. I was occupied with something else when the student quipped that she should talk to me because I'm the instructor. I informed her of the schedule and told her to come ...

I've struggled with watching pornography for several years. It's been going on since I was a young teenager and I've exposed myself to a lot of things that I look back on with regret and shame. There have been instance where I looked at pornographic content featuring fictional characters that were around my age at the time and I didn't see a problem with that when I was younger. Now I feel really horrible about ...

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Just hoping someone out there can help
I have harm ocd. Over the last few months it has gotten worse. From a simple altercation and thinking I have blacked out and murdered to now if someone just looks at me ,I'm scared that I black out and kill. Even the cops are sick of me rining to check I haven't killed. Now I'm too scared to leave the house and when I do, I ...

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Hi, I'm a 24 year old male, hoping to vent about my current blunder.
A few years back, I got myself into writing (mainly fanfictions) when I was going through a particularly dark chapter of my life; and I found the act of writing to be therapeutic. I often used various aspects of my life and my past self for inspiration. Stories very rarely turned out ...

I was better from thoughts, dreams about my theme. Actually this has happened a few times, I want to hear other people's opinion to tell me it is ocd and then I feel better. I always feel like what's stressing me is real and I get depressed, stressed when I don't know if what happened was ocd. It sucks, it makes me feel really bad and the hate, disappointment, sadness to myself only grows.
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leslie: Since I started with this intrusive thoughts thing, it started when I masturbated. I mean, when I did it once, the image of someone I didn't want came to my mind. That's when it all started. It's been 4 years now and now those thoughts are with a family member. I have had many triggers and compulsions. So I hardly ever masturbate, and if I did, I did a thousand things in ...

Hello, I have OCD very badly follows me wherever I go. I have to do things in eighths and it tots me that’s one that’s two and my mind talks to me all day. If I don’t do the compulsions I feel very sick and I don’t want it to get into the description of that because it makes me even more anxious. Could you please let me know if anything or anyone experiences this ...

Hello again! I guess I'm a disgusting, bad person after all. I don't know how to get out of this. Whenever something happens about my ocd theme (if it is hopefully) I want to know what has happened is because of ocd. I really don't know what to do. I want help, but in the country I am in there is no help (ocd specialist) I don't know if it is ocd that I have. ...

As you can tell, I’ve not been worse or better. It feels the same. I don’t feel any more anxiety or depression that had been plaguing my life, but I only feel is just neutral, like I’m able to stay focused on studies or other stuff with OCD. I’ve not had a treatment before, but I can’t tell if it’s OCD talking or just me overexaggerating.

I’m writing this because I feel hopeless, like I’ve been carrying a lot of mental baggage for a while that I can’t process or make sense of in a healthy way. It just always feels as if there is something off about my experiences/concerns, like a lot of the time “it’s just in my head” and the best thing for me to do is to simply ignore my thoughts. There’s probably some truth to that ...