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Hello, I guess for this I would have to explain the background of the situation. I'm a NEET, meaning no job and not studying anything. So basically I am at home all the time and play videogames, usually with other people. I'm dealing with depression and social anxiety too which doesn't help my case much. This is a very condensed version of it but I may expand if people want to know more.

So I ...

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SO I have been treated for OCD since teens and still managed to go military, and come out been at a professional job for 20 years. I am treated with Serotonin inhibitors since I was 13 got off them short time in basic training. I alwasy been on the go would be up sleeping no time and about year ago now doctor tried me on ADHD medicine and I way more focused and ...

Good. you're beyond your worries. When you want to die, be dead to worry and keep walking. Like in a cartoon, when a character gets shot, or their head bashed, they fall down and a spectral them floats out of the body; do that too, to your worry. Pain is pain and you've been through it before to get where you are now; you'll do it again. When you worry that people don't like you, ...

I have a few questions and things to run by on here.

Does anyone else feel the need to self medicate / self harm to the point of breaking down completely? I have bpd, anxiety and depression, About 4 different doctors said I have bpd. I just got out of community college for the summer, adulting is hard. I can’t fill my time enough, and when I do fill my time Im still bored, i ...

I’ve never been diagnosed with BPD (or anything), by the way, but I do believe I may be on the BPD Spectrum.

So, not only do I not know how to make friends, even slightly, I can’t even understand social situations generally (I don’t have autism or Aspergers as far as I know). And every time I have tried to make friends they either think I’m crazy (because I misread things and have many quirks ...

I’ve never been diagnosed with BPD (or anything), by the way, but I do believe I may be on the BPD Spectrum.

So, not only do I not know how to make friends, even slightly, I can’t even understand social situations generally (I don’t have autism or Aspergers as far as I know). And every time I have tried to make friends they either think I’m crazy (because I misread things and have many quirks ...

There is an inordinate amount of backstory that I doubt I could even verbalize and format into a post, but here's what I consider essential:



I have borderline personality disorder and significant trust issues stemming from trauma in my past.


For the last 5 years, any relationship I've been in has been built on a foundation of lies - I lied about who I was, my past, my history, my entire personality. I did this ...

so I’ve made a new online friend recently. We chat every day and everything is going well so far, but I’m worried that will change very soon. Always had a problem with oversharing, getting too close too soon with people and ruining everything by acting stupid. Sometimes I even sabotage myself by cutting off the relationship altogether. I leave before I’m abandoned. That is how I lost every single person who ever gave a $#%^ ...

Sorry, this is long...

I've been reading about BPD these past days and I can relate so much to some of it. The fact that I only need to meet 5 of the 9 criteria also makes me think I have some sort of BPD or BPD traits.

What I notice though is that it seems to affect mostly romantic relationships. For example, it never affected work for me before, as I'm able to control ...

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