Living with psychiatric personality structure

Good morning sincerely everyone,

I would like to ask for advice, maybe I will get some answers. I am 35 years old, I have many psychiatric problems - the main one is psychotic personality structure with anxiety disorder, I also went through psychotic episodes, once a severe neurosis with neurospasms, for several years delusions, depressive episodes, autistic problems since birth and holistic developmental disorder. I have been in treatment for sixteen years. I have completed several majors, speak four languages well (eleven to a lesser degree). I have gone through dozens of workplaces since I started working, since I have a ruling also in sheltered conditions. Unfortunately, I very often get fired from jobs because I have terrible problems with perceptiveness and cussing. I even got fired from a few jobs in protected conditions:/ I live alone, but I am not fully independent and I would very much like to change that. The problem is that in most of the jobs I come to I hear sooner or later that I'm not suitable and out. They say follow your heart and do what you love. But no military is likely to take me on.... I'm interested in health sciences, translation and economics, most jobs in these industries are already being replaced by artificial intelligence. To work with people I'm not suitable, most are afraid of me, besides I'm blunt in interpersonal relations. Many therapists don't want to take up working with me, and those who do, can't help and say so themselves. I've decided to try working in engineering because it's the future, I'm not interested in it, but I can discipline myself. Do you have any advice on how to treat myself and what to do with my professional life? Most people say they don't know what to do in this situation, but I need to know....

Thank you in advance for your answers
Young

I wish I had something reasonably direct to say about your situation but your illness is so complex it would take someone who is trained and has spent a lot of time reviewing the facts of your history, to begin to suggestion a direction.

The only thing I can say is, you seem to be aware of how you function in a workplace (through much trial and error) so perhaps that might help you find the right environment for you. In other words, I think you really ought to not only consider the type of work you want to do but what kind of social environment that profession offers.

I hate to advise anything that cuts someone off from socializing like working from home and alone but sometimes people enjoy that sort of thing (I do!). So I guess I'm saying that both things should be researched together, profession and what kind of environment will that put you in.

Good luck! Otter.