Help Depressed

No problem, I hope things go well for you and good luck in your exams,

If you need any more support just post back here and I'll reply

All the best x

Thanks...

-- Mon Jul 18, 2011 11:45 am --

hi again,
i feel like killing myself, but no i dont want to to that.
my mother is as stupid as she was. There is no change.
i cant ignore all these things from her, because if i ignore that i'll be ignoring my future.
please tell me how can achieve a calm mind, without any disturbances?

Stupid mother. She likes her parents who love others more than us. Her mother (granny) didn't even cry when she lost her daughter. Thats the love my grandma has on daughters. They play family politics, sometimes i wonder if they have disguised my mother's thinking. Grandma didn't give my mom a penny, not even the love/care. Yet my stupid mother loves her.

I hate my mother, but sometimes i very much love her. Thats making her stupidity enrich. I can even kill her. She is so foolish and has no understanding of people's inside thinking/ actuality.

Hello again!

What's been happening then recently?

I know how you feel about parents being infuriating. You know how you feel is just intrusive thoughts right? You don't really want to kill your mother.

Think how you feel about your mother. She upsets you but you're still there and loyal to her. Maybe she is doing the same with her mother?

Sorry it has taken so long to reply. I haven't been on this site in ages.

I hope you're well now X

Sorry Broken Butterfly for being late. Thanks for the reply.

My mother lost her sister recently. But... thats all i like to say on it. As usual i lost another academic year. But, you know what? I never feel depressed for losing my time. I'm happy as usual even though i lost an year.

Time i feel my mom is stupid, i come here and post. Yes, i can't do anything she's my mom, but some times i feel her stupidity is infinity. Her doings make me feel wrong about her. Anyway, i know one day i will overcome all these things. These doesn't matter at the end.

It's fine no worries.

Did losing your aunt upset you also? It's understandable. Any reason in particular you don't want to talk about it?

It's good that losing an academic year hasn't brought you down, what are you doing now?

What do you mean makes you feel wrong about her? I know how you feel about thinking parents stupidity could be infinite. I think that about my own mother!

Thanks for all the support here. Here's an Update.

Over next three years, i finished my school and got a diploma. Did work in various companies, but had been jobless most of the times. It's hard to trust people, and i have been into quite a depression again.

Though, this time, it is little lower than before. I have increased weight again, and i'm following a diet.
I'm almost 33, and still unmarried. I don't have a girlfriend either. As like any other part of my life, many friends have left me even during this time.

Searching for a job, though most of the times without enthusiasm. But, yes, life is full of Ups and Downs.

Recently i came to know that i have a bipolar disorder which makes me happy at times, and very depressed at others.

I don't think there is any solution for this till i die.

mr1234 wrote:Recently i came to know that i have a bipolar disorder which makes me happy at times, and very depressed at others.

I don't think there is any solution for this till i die.

I have had Bipolar Disorder for 40 years. It is hard to bear but it is manageable. But it takes the willingness to do something about it and to fight against emerging symptoms. Meds, and therapy, have worked for me.

Thank You for the reply.

What kind of therapies?

The life has made me think why I have so much of depression for long years. It's true that too many people leave you at lower phases of the life, and most of them accept it. It's only a few like me who think a lot on it, and get into mental strain. And, I think that it is because of the medical condition I have this happens.

I have had medication before, and even to this day, some of the medicines are mixed with food by my mother totally unaware to me.