Interest


I lose interest in things very easily. I always think that whatever comes into my life is going to be the "new thing" that's going to set motion to the rollercoaster of my life and get me going on the path that I dream of, but it never is.

I guess my expectations are too high. I downloaded a full copy of the DSM-V a few weeks ago and told myself that by reading this I would be able to be a more knowledgable person when it comes to dealing with people who have PD's. I read less than one page. This is just one example of many. I see how other people have changed from picking up small hobbies, or gaining new interests that slowly bur surely change their outlook on life. I want something like that for myself.

But It always ends up the same, I just give up on things and return to my shell where I sit and resent the state of my life. I need something that will give meaning to my life. I feel like whenever I accomplish anything, someone or something has always given me that simple but significant "push" to get me going. I need something like that right now.

I'll keep searching for it though, hopefully one day I will see what it is I need. Until then I will keep walking, or simply fall down in the process.