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Five months ago place A said they can't accept me because I've had too many hospitalizations and I'm a liability. Place B said they don't prescribe the meds I'm on and they're not accepting new patients anyways. I go back to the IOP for a while. Now I'm trying to get out of there but I need a psychiatrist and a therapist before I leave and now I call place C today and they say ...

Where to start? When I was 7 or 8 I was diagnosed with Aspergers. BEFORE that, I was treated completely normally in school, teachers treated me like everyone else. AFTER the diagnosis, I was treated like a 2 year old. My teachers coddled me, as they expected me to rage into a meltdown at the drop of a hat. I was placed in special ed for no goddamn reason at all, other than that I ...

Sometimes, I feel crazier than all of them (and they're a pretty crazy bunch, for sure).

I think I'm becoming OK with that. I mean, why fight it? It is what it is. There's no changing this.


(its a catchy title: no, I really don't believe Imma pirate)

What difference does it make 0 or 5? Even or odd number...... Nice round number. Breaking it by posting this. Needed it to remain on 00...... Failed. Then again I'm good at failing.

No it's not self pity, but the truth. A complete utter fckuwit. That is me.


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All I want to do is kill myself and you tell me I'm winding the witch next door up by parking where I normally park...... Just ...

I haven't been taking my meds for a few days and i can feel the fear returning to me. I hate this country so much that even if i wasn't scared to live, i wouldn't want to. %90 of my life was full of anxiety and fear, i had good memories too, but when i think of future, it just isn't enough for me to want to live. I know life's supposed to be a ...

i'M IN such a love hate relationshiop with mania because it's ######6 awesome and it's ######6 terrible and I literlaly just woke up this morning and my mind is like "YEAH! LET'S HAVE A NONSTOP DANCE PARTY!" and yeaaaaahhhhhhh, so I did see my pdoc and he added neurontin and I don't htink I'm gonna get it because there's a part of me that believes tomorrow I'll wake up and be fine thanks to the ...

You know I just generally need it.

But no, not in this economy.

I'm sick of seeing a therapist who think's I'm depressed.

When is the NHS going to learn that anti-depressants aren't an all-purpose medication.

But no.

Instead I clearly have to commit some act of high treason to get admitted to a psychiatric ward. Then again that's if I can get a psychoanalyst, psychologist, psychiatrist or therapist who will actually say in court ...

And bear in mind, that I only dislike, with a vengeance, those that all of these points cover. We all have things that are annoying or make us disagreeable. But in my mind, someone with all of these traits, needs to stay well away from me:

1) those that think they know it all and won't entertain anyone else's ideas.
2) those that have serious prejudices.
3) those that try and coerce others into joining ...

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every hope and good thing comes to an end just like the last one. i don't think there's any hope for me. will never have friends or a partner. theres no chance for me, why lie to myself. living is just pain. the person i like probably hates me now, why did I even try to make a friend. i can't ever do any of this right. i should have died in the past.