Alexithymic.
Conversion, and pain disorders.
My story:
Alexithymia
Someone that doesn't understand emotions.
To me it's that I can't "feel" my emotions yet I must control them in social situations.
I once wrote ""we're people that use emotional words that really don't know what they mean".
Really strong emotions come out as "arrrgh" at best.
Hate is really strong.
Love is really strong.
We can't tell them apart.
Emotionally incoherent.
So - Cry when you're ...