News of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Forum

Hello, I am a 21 year old girl. I had always thought I was a heterosexual girl. My first crush was on my brother's male friend when I was about 6. However, when I was about 9-10 I discovered girl on girl porn without looking for it , I remember googling "hot boys" and started watching it. I would masturbate and then feel guilty. I don't know if it was after or before, but I ...

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I am a 20 year old man and I have had OCD tendencies for about two years now, although it is undiagnosed I have the doctors tomorrow and hopefully I will get some help for it.

My OCD started with thoughts about what I did in my past and feeling really guilty for them although it wasn't harming anyone I just felt like I should feel bad for it. Since that moment my ...

Hi, I'm a 17 year old girl who has been diagnosed with OCD. I've been struggling with it for a while now, specifically the theme of worrying about if I'm a lesbian. I've liked boys since I was little, and currently still do like them but I'm really struggling. This is because in my past I've had some weird things happen.

Basically when I first started watching porn I remember I would watch lesbian porn ...

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I'd just like to ask for some help. It seems that because I have now (once again) silenced my TOCD in the sense of being secretly a woman, the TOCD has taken a new form of some "In the middle" genders. When I was reading other people's TOCD stories I saw the mention of a number of different gender titles and part of my compulsions have been researching different identities, just like how people ...

Can Hocd use low-self esteem against you?

(In general, I don't have a high self-esteem. I don't really like to let it affect my life...my low self-esteem does tend to bring down my mood and view on myself a lot. )

Recently for the first time, I had a guy negatively comment on my looks.

I do not think I'm pretty. Average at best. I had aways been a bit insecure about my looks and ...

i am having difficulties with very strong intrusive thoughts.

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lately i can feel my wrists being cut and i cannot stop thinking about the mess and the pain and the numbing. i think about *mod edit*

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i check and check and check. i keep my arms limp when i can. i lie on my stomachs. i count and pray to make these ...

I think about suicide A LOT.

I worry that I will lose my mind and jump off an overpass or steal a neighbor's gun and shoot myself or overdose on pills etc. etc. My mind keeps finding ways for me to kill myself and I keep freaking myself out thinking about all the ways I could do it.

But the thing is I DO NOT want to commit suicide. At least, I don't think I ...

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I am a 20 year old male and I have had obsessive thoughts for around two years, usually going from worry to worry and I can usually just let them go and move on, some taking longer than others obviously.

I have worried about being homosexual, harming others, paedophilia (which is what forces me to ask this question now)

When i was dating my ex girlfriend I would sometimes see her little brother who ...

So what went down was, as a juvenile I was been In a lot of trouble.
I have been arrested in the past and charged with big indictable offences, this brought huge distress and I was panicking through out the entire process.

What has recently happened was between someone online.
I had told them I 'Got someone to kill them' (Jokingly) they had claimed to reported me and said I would be extradited and face ...

Hi. I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this since i've never been diagnosed with OCD and do not know if this is OCDat all. That being said, my whole life I have had these 'games' that I would play and when I was younger they were no big deal but over the years they've become more and more persistent where I can't not do them. So basically, if i'm sitting ...