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Hi,

I've recently remembered one or two separate times when I was 14 where I believe I punched my younger sister, then 12, in the breast lightly, out of sexual curiosity/desire/wanting to touch (ughhhh this is so horrible I feel awful). She only said something to me about it once, and I apologized and I never did it again after that.

Doesn't this mean I molested my sister? I feel absolutely disgusting about this and ...

Hi everyone,

My OCD and mental rituals are becoming so intricate. They used to make sense, now they don't. So I'm trying to quit smoking, here's my current issue

I quit yesterday (Easter)
Easter is about religion
Religion terrifies me
Smoking is bad
Smoked on Easter
If I quit on Easter, I'll never forget that and I'll be scared of religious thoughts the rest of my life
If I 'un-do' the action and smoke my ...

Can someone give me some outside insight??? A few weeks ago I got a new adult "toy" i was at my boyfriends and didn't get to use it. I got in my car and turned on this podcast I listen to which tells murder stories with humor. At first it was a way for me to combat my OCD now I can't listen. Anyways not even paying attention I was like, "Maybe I can use ...

I'm a 19 years old male. Since childhood I have a fear of becoming a female. Though I know that it is impossible because I'm a male and have always identified myself as a male. I have never wanted to
be a female and have always hated the idea of doing any kind of girlish activity.

Not always but sometimes I feel like a girl has kicked me out of my body and entered into ...

I've posted on here before but it was mainly for HOCD. That has gotten a lot better. I've even gotten my attraction to men back. But TOCD has now creeped back up again. It all started when I had HOCD at first and I was trying to focus all my fantasies on males rather than females. So I thought about it for a males perspective. Then the thought came and I started slightly freaking out. ...

I'm scared. I'm a lesbian with straight ocd, and I'm not attracted to men, but my brain keeps throwing at me "it's not that you aren't sexually attracted to them, you're just discriminating" and I'm here like NOOO! I have nothing against them but dick is gross! Then my mind said "you're just saying that because you don't want to be viewed as straight/bi" and like UGGGH I feel like it's true!??? But it's not!!! ...

Does anybody else, Who has been dealing with this hocd thing for a while, ever feel like things get muddled after a while? Like your intrusive thoughts don't really bring much anxiety anymore, probably because you've gotten used to them? At the beginning of my hocd, I had so much anxiety about being gay, hated it, couldn't even say the word out loud anymore. Lately, I personally have been feeling like I can't even tell ...

I don't know what to feel now. I feel like dying. I've been experiencing what I believe is HOCD for the last two to three months. I've lost almost all attraction to women. I don't believe that i'm gay, but, if I see a guy on the street or even online my heart begins to race. That makes me nervous. It's come to a point that today I told myself "I'm gay" and the pain/anxiety ...

Since I was younger I've had this fear of becoming crazy. Thanks started after I watched the movie "1408" and it lasted a few months. It went away for the most part but was triggered again over a year ago, and it was bad. I started therapy and discussed OCD with my doctor.

Well things have been off and on, I don't have insurance anymore so therapy isn't an option. But I just had a ...

Hello,

I think I have an issue, but I couldn't match it with any description of mental issues I saw online. Would anyone here help me identifying it? The closer I got is OCD, but I am not sure.

Whenever I am sitting or laying down, I can't stop moving. But I tend to move in some patterns, usually anti-symmetryc, e.g. if my foot is going up and down (in this order), I will move ...