Our Journey Thread

We figured we would do one of these so we can have something to physically look back at, but also in case it helps others. One thing we’ve experienced is headmates morphing when we address trauma and changing inner world entirely.

Six months ago, we finally discovered we weren’t experiencing minor seizures like our doctor thought and instead was panicking when we dissociated and were making it where no one could front. We discovered this from the voices of each other, plus our actual recorded switched states when we relaxed more and allowed it to happen.

We spoke with our doctor, in which we were told to monitor these symptoms more. Journaling, mood journal, recording when we became who, when. And through a grueling four months that blurred by, we finally started to get ahold of things.

A little bit about us before we go forward; Because our system was so covert for so long and blocked by our host panicking, we never really got to discover more of who we were until we began to relax. Because of that, a lot of who we are is more inspired by fiction, which our doctor believes is a quick way to conveniently fill in gaps which we can relate to.

Once we were on this track of working with our doctor, it was another two closely monitored months (6 months all together) before she finally dropped the words DID in session. We had suspected, but hearing it really solidified things. It’s strangely helped us, while we feel a little whiplashed, to also feel more grounded and secure with each other.

Which goes onto the morphs that happened from healing:

Anyway. First, one of our headmates, Annika, managed to age by about ten years (went from 16 to about 32) after we came to terms with some trauma. And then the same happened about a week later, a chain reaction of addressing trauma, where one of the headmates (me lol), Henry, made the peaceful transition from living human to ghost in the headspace.

It’s been a blur and we’re still learning to work with each other. We have lost tracks of time, so 6 months is about an estimate and still isn’t the full time we were working with this doctor, only the period that covered when we began to suspect something different was going on, plus working hard to uncover what it was.

And there. That’s the short and sweet of so far.

Thanks for coming to our TedTalk
-Henry

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